Wednesday, December 29, 2010

Thoughtful Mates

If I could describe beauty in friendships,

It would be the littlest things that friends do for you.
May it be giving gifts, writing comments, texts, e-mails or a simple gesture of gratitude. Shows that you are in their thoughts.

My prayers are always with those who remember, appreciate and take me as I am.

And of course, I return each favour in my own ways ;)


Here are the stuffs from some of my precious jewels :-

Physical distance brings no significance in friendships that are built based on trust, love and care for one another.


Boys Will Be Boys, Yes They Will.

This the way you left me, I'm not pretending.
No hope,No love,No glory, No Happy Ending.
This the way we love, like it's forever, To live the rest of our life, but not together.
Wake up in the morning, stumble on my life, can't get no love without sacrifice.
If anything should happen, I guess I wish you well.
A little bit of heaven, but a little bit of hell.
This is the hardest story that I've ever told, happy endings gone forever more.
I feel as if I'm wasted and I'm wastin' every day.
Please don't worry bout me I'm fine, Trust me when I say that I'll be okay,
Go on, Boy.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cause I'll just make the same mistake again.
And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.

Monday, December 27, 2010

What A Week!



What a week it was!

* I failed the JPA test, well I sort of expected it.
* I got blood clot on my toes, the first time ever getting it from doing sports after 22 years
of my life.
* Slammed my finger on the sliding door.
* Spilled water on my phone.

On the contrary,

* Celebrated parents' awesome 25th Wedding Anniversary at 3 different venues.
* Went to Christmas party at Roy's with fun mates.
* Met a few interesting people with interesting encounters ;)
[Florist, BR, MPSJ]

This is the part of my life where I experience good & bad at once.
I cannot describe the feeling, but I guess it is just part of being alive.


Monday, December 6, 2010


Thank You For The Gorgeous Gifts.

A two way route it, we will be

Godbless (:

Saturday, November 20, 2010

Get Married?

Sometime last week, during breaktime.......

Anon : "You shouldn't be here, you should find someone, get married and live happily."
Me : "Errr excuse me?"
This is the second time I was asked whether if I had a boyfriend/spouse/someone.
It was rather weird. This person is somewhat old, er much older than I am, I think.
Someone I got to know just recently and somewhat earned my respect not by choice.
Me : "I am too young for that shit and definitely not ready."
Anon : "Why not?"
Me : "Again am only 22. I haven't lived yet. I mean not lived long enough to experience that yet and am not here to look for a potential husband."
Anon : "Ahh it's either you are ambitious or you've had bad experience"
Me : "The latter."
Anon : "No wonder."
Me : "How'd you figure? "
Anon : "I teach ** maaa, of course I know"
I laughed cynically and continued with doing my work.
One of the weirdest conversation I've ever had with somebody of such position.
I guess that person meant no harm.
But why was I asked such questions, do I appear desperate/like i don't belong in the group?
Who Cares.

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

I gave you everything, but it just wasn't enough, to make you stay

You said you'd give me time and space again

I asked to see you everyday

Now I'm waiting four years just to feel your touch, waiting four whole years to say how much I care

The flowers I gave you, died, lost and been thrown away, just like me

Life has passed me by, reflected in my eye

Never again will I have you beside me, you to be there

The years behind cost more than I'll ever have,

More than I’ll ever have,

More than I will ever have

Now I'm waiting four years just to hear your voice, waiting four whole years to lie right by your side

I waited all this time, just to see hear your voice

I waited all this time to say how much I care.

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

The system in mmu is such everything is online. I was exposed with similar system in Inti but then it wasn't so much dependent on it solely. Still adjusting myself to get used to checking the system frequently so I don't miss out on any detail. I used to have Reshveen printing every notes, cases, outlines. Now it's all on me.

MMU is very different. The campus is bigger in size, the people are somewhat more diverse than at Inti Subang. I get weird expressions and comments here from random individuals and coursemates. They're not cynical or degrading comments, just compliments and disbelief remarks.

Living away from home is a bitch. No home cooked food on weekdays. In a different light, am grateful that I don't have to stay at the hostel and the pad we're renting is cosy.

My Sis and I, we have been actively going for netball practice. Our only outdoor activity for now. Aside from swimming for Syaz.

More updates soon!

This Saturday will be the day i sit for my PTD exam. Hope everything will go smoothly. Especially with Math & History questions!


Friday, October 29, 2010

More Exams? For A Job.

The number of/details about the exams


"Take learning as a fun thing to do, a beautiful journey NOT a chore or a burden"
My OB lecturer's take on education.

Monday, October 25, 2010

Wooh Fierce Predictions.

I don't believe in astrology but I love reading it for fun.
This particular one has a nice take to it.
Hence, this post ;)

Friday, October 22, 2010

Never My Intention To Brag.

PARAMORE Live in Malaysia 191010

The best concert yet. We queued outside at 4pm, entered the stadium at about 7.15, got into the 6th row filled with a bunch of stuck up college kids. Show started at 8ish, squeezed our way through right after the opening act. Managed to hustle to the front row. Ngeheh. Enjoyed the show very much.

Souvenirs from the concert :
(a) insults , curses and backmouthing from those stuck up kids
(b) bruises on our legs and hands
(c) my chest hurts still from squeezing, leaning, pushing through to the front
(d) guitar pick!
(e) sweet sweet memories.

Made friends with some of the fans. I remember pushing a few guys who are much bigger than i am, taught a dude who came alone to the concert how to secure the front spot but he ended up standing behind of me throughout the show. He even asked whether if it's alright to lean his head on my shoulder cause he was tired/couldn't breathe or something like that. Said do what you have to dude, it's cool. Met a few familiar faces from school. Juniors mostly, Adlina, Irfaan and I don't remember his name, let's just call him cute nerd. And stupid Oliver was there too.

Syaz & Mil are such awesome concert buds.

More to come, God Willing. Cheers!

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Back To School!

My Beautiful Chest X-Ray

Handbook, Freebie & Confirmation Letter.

Believe it or not, am going to Graduate School.

Please Allah, let this be a smooth sailing journey.
Protect me from all the bad and evil & Provide me with strengths and guidance.


Spot On.

Monday, September 27, 2010


My first job offer after graduating.

Why do things happen without our consent?

Guess it's true what they say about life.

Full of unexpected events, surprises.

Friday, September 24, 2010


Are all Gina/Geena bitches?
Am starting to think just that.
My apologies if anyone is offended by my remark,
But if you're not one, why should you feel upset?


Thursday, September 23, 2010

Look What Ma Made Me Do.

I picked choice #2 onwards.

Just for the fun of it.

Let's just see what comes back.

Monday, September 13, 2010

What I Do Best.

I always find I always find somethin' wrong
You been puttin' up wit' my shit just way too long
I'm so gifted at findin' what I don't like the most
So I think it's time for us to have a toast

Let's have a toast for the douchebags,
Let's have a toast for the assholes,
Let's have a toast for the scumbags,
Every one of them that I know
Let's have a toast to the jerkoffs
That'll never take work off
Baby, I got a plan
Run away fast as you can

And I just blame everything on you
At least you know that's what I'm good at.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

That Is Not How You Want It To Be.

She was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Oh I guess I should have told her
But I thought she knew

She said I took her for granted
Last thing I would do
Oh I'll never understand it
'Cause I thought she knew

I thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burns for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

A heart full of words left unspoken
Now that we're through
I'd sell my soul to have this silence broken
Oh I thought she knew
I thought she knew

it has to laugh
it has to cry
it has to find
it has to lose
it will sigh in loneliness every morning and evenings
every hearts which attempts to love.

with laughter on its lips, with water in its eyes
a true love is one which sacrifices itself happily
it has to stop
it has to continue
it has to wither away
it has to burn
which will suffer other's pain too silently

flowers do not blossom on every branch of a tree
everyone doesn't get love of his/her life
it has to be lonely
it will suffer in music of shehnai
sometimes amidst its own
or sometimes in the shadows
it will traverse thorn ridden paths with a smile

Every Hearts Which Attempts to Love

Eid 100910

"Hani, your house is very welcoming, there isn't any hierarchical barrier." (Ahmad. I)

"Nur, your house is very homey, comfortable. Beautiful place." (Pang. Y)

Those were comments i received from friends who came to celebrate Eid with my family.
I thought those were indications of what a house should be, a home, filled with love.

Am glad you guys felt at home.
Thank you for being part of my Eid celebration this year and hopefully more to come.

Families are NOT necessarily/only formed through BLOOD but through LOVE.

Thursday, September 9, 2010

Unsung Valedictorian

A very good afternoon to Professor Tim Wilson, Vice-Chancellor of University of Hertfordshire, Mr Graham Doxey, Deputy CEO of Laureate International Universities, President Tan Yew Sing, President of INTI Group of Colleges, Professor Dr Lee Fah Onn, Vice Chancellor of INTI-UC, Mrs Joyce Yuen, principal of INTI College Subang Jaya, representatives from the University of Hertfordshire, lecturers, parents, fellow graduates and all whom are at present.

Wow it’s amazing to be here, truly an honour for me to be here, to stand in front of everyone especially you graduates to pass my speech. I bet none of you have ever thought I’d be a valedictorian, especially on this beautiful day. Well, I’m sorry for turning the day which you all have ever dreamt of, into a nightmare with my long and windy speech which you all are about to listen to and ultimately doze off - SOON. Mind you, this is only the introduction of my speech.

Well here we are - the graduating class of 2010 , the best graduates of all time from the greatest college in Malaysia - Inti College Subang Jaya and Inti-UC. Honestly, I actually thought of how to make my speech interesting – BUT I COULDN’T THINK OF ANYTHING, went to the extent of Googling “Valedictorian Speech 101” – COULDN’T FIND ANYTHING EITHER. It feels like as though the articles or resources found on the database for assignments are invalid.

But anyhow, let’s take a walk down memory lane.

My fellow graduates,

It just seems like yesterday when all of our parents complained of how silly we were in our younger years - wetting our beds at night, not knowing how to tie our shoe laces or even wearing the left shoe in the right foot and the right shoe in the left foot.

It just seems like yesterday when all of us had high school crush, ordering roses from social clubs during Valentine’s Day, made it deliver to the classroom to the girl/guy sitting just next to us with a note saying “I like you, but I’m shy. Love, Anonymous”. What a way of replacing our beautiful names to a plain dull boring common name - Anonymous. Also the time we hope High School days would end faster and get into college as soon as possible.

It just seems like yesterday when all of the ICSJ graduates walked into the campus and thought “OHHH MAN, NOT ANOTHER HIGH SCHOOL ENVIRONMENT, WHAT A PLACE TO BE IN”, before the new building was up.

It just seems like yesterday when we last wore this robe in kindergarten at the age of 6 and here we are, wearing it again, looking exactly like Harry Porter and Company - only much cooler and less nerdy.

It’s crazy to think that 3 years of college life flew by just like that and a lot of us did not know each other back then – Nur Azhani who was much shorter back then and now 0.25 inch taller, do take note of her height when she walks up the stage later,Reshveen who was definitely much more quiet back then, but ohh my where did my quiet Reshveen go to, and the whole bunch of you whom I didn’t know back then but grew closer to me as the years went by.

My fellow graduates,

Let’s admit it, happiness, elated, joyful, euphoric was what we felt right after our final exam of the entire degree, possibly the very last exam for some of us. But let us not hide from the fact that all of us felt a pinch of sadness as we all know that this day would be the very last day of our college years.

Let us remember the highs and lows of our college life. Let us remember the better days - snickering at lecturers at the back of the class, trying to outwit the security guard who didn’t allow us to wear slippers into the campus, buttering the lecturer just to get extra marks (which it honestly didn’t work at all), completion of assignments after sleepless nights due to procrastination, instead putting the blame on Facebook. AhhhHhh! Those are the better days of our college life, but what about the least delightful moments – lecturers sending us warning letters which they claim as “love letters” (how nice of them), getting kicked out from group assignments, the anxiety before the final exam of each semester and the awaiting of results. I believe all these experiences will definitely be engraved in our hearts and minds forever.

My fellow graduate,

Throughout my entire college years, what I have enjoyed the most, apart from learning PEST, SWOT, Life Cycle, 4P’s (day in, day out! YES I “ENJOYED” THESE MOMENTS) is of course “indulging” myself in student’s activities and joining the Student Council known as INTIMA. Before I joined INTIMA, I had the perception of INTIMA is only for the famous, for the popular ones, for the crème de la crème of the college but MAN I was wrong! Any TOM, DICK AND HARRY AND EVEN SALLY could have joined INTIMA and that includes me the plain old average Joe. But as I was in INTIMA, I thought to myself, good gracious – what have I gotten myself into. The never ending meetings, staying back late after college hours for discussions, having to spend breaks in the office instead of with friends and having Mommy to constantly call me to check on me and make sure I wasn’t out having a jolly good time instead. That is the life when you’re in INTIMA.

But things have begun to change towards the end of our life in INTIMA. All of us started missing each meeting, the discussions which NEVER HAD conclusion, we missed every single event organized by clubs and societies, we missed getting to know people from different cultures and backgrounds – the international students, we even missed going into meetings with the Management and demanding for the unnecessary and will definitely miss our “brotherhood” gang (which the excos have self acclaim themselves).

The fondest memory which I had in INTIMA was organizing the Conference whereby Excos from other INTIMA under Inti Group came together to discuss the operations, problems and collectively discussed solutions to overcome these problems. From there we bonded with each other. We used to see Metropolitan’s Student Council as an enemy – NOT ANYMORE. We even had road trips with Inti-UC to Penang to visit Inti-Penang and sure we had loads of fun. Just to brag a little, during paintball, ICSJ whooped Inti-UC’s Exco although outnumbered and with zero casualties on our side.

But beneath this joy and fun experience, we have learnt that as an Exco, we carry the motto of “service above self” by fighting for the welfare and the rights of the students although most of you don’t see it as that way sometimes. We have learnt the importance of friendship and how friendship makes the team moves forward. Most importantly, we have learnt that teamwork is the fundamental and that everyone is a leader in a team and that no one is lesser than the other. It does not mean that the higher position you hold, it means you’re more powerful than the rest - that would be the wrong perception. I have to admit that I would definitely miss all these bittersweet experience which I have obtained during my tenure in INTIMA. By the way, a little marketing here, ICSJ would be having IntiBall on July 8, in Sunway Hotel, please be there okay.

Okay now enough of the drama, I’m going to move on to my thank you list, so listen out for your names because I know you want to be acknowledged by me

Ladies and Gentlemen,

Allow me to first and foremost thank God for all the blessings which He has showered upon you and I and I believe that without His abundance and blessings, none of this would have happened today, especially to me, standing here as your valedictorian for today. I continue to pray that His blessings may shower upon each and every one of you in whatever you do and in your future undertakings. I truly believe that prayers are often heard and answered so “~Don’t stop believing!”…

On a personal note, I also like to thank my family who has been my backbone my entire life. To my dearest Mommy, thank you for the wonderful words of wisdom all this years and for the prayers. I have never doubted in a mother’s prayer. Also Mommy, I’d like to thank you for the endless nagging which you have given me, pulling my ears many a times just so I would get my lazy butt to start off my assignments and me to start studying for my finals. To Pa, my handsome old man – Thank you for buying back snacks for me to chew on during late nights whilst studying, and also thank you for the words of wisdom of which sounds like this “My handsome son, study hard, so in future you could get me a Chelsea jersey and cable TV for me to watch football”. My dear parents, thank you for turning me into an independent and a strong willed young man. To my darling sister Grace, thank you for setting such high benchmark in the family so much so I see you as my competitor and thrive to push myself, also thank you for the advice when it comes to studies, work and also in getting girls. To Joshua, thank you for the distraction at home and using you as an excuse so I could go to college to study instead. All in all, thank you for the support and guidance which you have given me and I pray that this day would be the day I make you proud.

Not forgetting Nur Azhani’s family,

To Ma, Pa, Busu and Kak Syaz thank you for the words of encouragement whenever I started having doubts in myself. Also thank you for making me delicious food whenever I go over. I am very lucky to self-acclaim myself as your adopted son.

Yes, the lecturers, you’re definitely not forgotten. Thank you so so so so very much – FOR NOT GIVING UP ON US. Also thank you for giving us constant guidance with your unending patience in bringing out the best in us. Thank you for the coaxing and the knowledge which you have imparted. To Ms. Sothees, my Economics lecturer, I now realize that it is okay to contribute to the unemployment rate, just as long as we know that we fall in the 4% category, to some lecturers who threatened us that if we do not speak English in class, Hertfordshire would fail us. I’d also like to thank my final year lecturers, Mr. Dennis - for making marketing class interesting, Ms. Kannaki – teaching us the loopholes to avoid being dismissed or terminated in Industrial Relation, Ms. Catherine – providing funny examples which made us understand better for International Marketing and Mr. Neo – for going through case study after case study with us which made us realize that some strategies are not so strategic after all in Strategy Management class. Not forgetting Ms. Fauziah and Ms. Sharifah who took place as our Mamas in college.

To the Management of Inti and UH,

Thank you for the wholesome education which you have provided us throughout our college years. Thank you for providing us a conducive learning environment that has helped us shaped our minds and enhanced our college experience. U.H representatives, thank you for checking on us every semester if we’re okay with our modules and whether the library has sufficient books. And to the admin staff of Inti who has been there for us all the while in ensuring a smooth studying process. To the Management of ICSJ, it is like a warzone to us EXCO, going for meetings every semester to request and demand for things which students have requested example, increasing the speed of the internet connection when it is already fast enough. On behalf of them, I’d like to thank you for letting us win all the time by accommodating to our request. Thank you.

To my dear friends,

No, you’re definitely not forgotten. Nur Azhani, Reshveen and I-Lynn, thank you for being the best groupmates I ever had although there were a lot of clash of opinions, yet we did it, not forgetting – thank you for the neat in-text citation and Harvard Referencing which earned us extra marks. To Jennifer, Nicole and Wendy, thank you for saving me when I had to find for another group due to some conflict in our class. And yes, to my darling Maldivian friend, Nada, thank you for teaching me the Maldivian culture and also the Maldivian dance. All in all, to all whom I know, the joy the laughter, the sadness that we share, these would be the memories which I will truly cherish forever. As quoted by the great Muhammad Ali – “Friendship... is not something you learn in school. But if you haven't learned the meaning of friendship, you really haven't learned anything”.

Lastly, to HOPE Foundation and to Datuk Seri Ong Tee Keat, thank you so much for subsidizing a huge lump sum of my college fee and to give me hope in joining the private institution after failing to secure a place in local universities.

My fellow graduates,

I believe it is customary for a valedictorian to give a substantial amount of inspiring and thought provoking words – I’m not sure if I’m the right person to come to. But anyhow, I’d just like to share this with you, when I entered the British American Tobacco Student Competition, I had doubts in winning the competition but I told myself that since I was already in it, why not give it the best shot, keeping a positive mind and attitude, I sure did win the competition. What I’m trying to imply here is that if you know your capabilities, go for it, on one condition – NEVER EVER DOUBT YOURSELF. Once you start doubting in yourself that is when you start to believe that the possible would be the impossible. As quoted by the great Mahatma Gandhi, Men often become what they believe themselves to be. If I believe I cannot do something, it makes me incapable of doing it. But when I believe I can, then I acquire the ability to do it even if I didn't have it in the beginning”.Just remember that what doesn’t kill us only makes us stronger. We may fall but we rise again learning what failed us and continue improving ourselves. As for today, I know and I see that everyone believed in themselves and that’s why we're all here today!

My fellow graduates,

We have come a long way, a path filled with memories and many more to come in our future endeavours. But this is THE DAY, THIS IS OUR DAY. As the saying in the Bible goes “I have fought the good fight and I have won the race”, this is the day you graduates have been fighting for, this is the day you graduates have won the race!

Remember all the while, you make the best of your own life. An excerpt from a poem by William Shakespeare reads: “All the world's a stage, And all the men and women merely players” which also mean our life is like a stage, you are your very own cast, the story depends on yourself.

With that being said, here’s to us, the future CEO of Laureate International Universities, CEO of Krispy Kreme, McDonalds and Wall-Mart, I bid you congratulations and all the best. Thank you.

Have you guessed it already?

Yup, that's him. OKMS.

Bitch, you are a Valedictorian in our eyes.
(just for including my name that many times in your speech :P )

Needn't prove it to the world/others.

Keep on striving.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Heck Yes, Brains Definitely Turn Me On.

For Azhani Mohd Anil Shah whose name start with letter A, below are the analysis result :

You are not particularly romantic, but you are interested in action. You mean business. With you, what you see is what you get. You have no patience for flirting and cant be bothered with someone who is trying to be coy, cute, demure, and subtly enticing. You are an up-front person. You often don't get hints & you ever pass any. Brains turn you on. You must feel that your partner is intellectually stimulating; otherwise you will find it difficult to sustain the relationship. You require loving, cuddling, wining, and dining to know that you're being appreciated. Your mate's physical attractiveness is important for you. You tend to be very practical, & not very emotional. Your choices are very good & can only lead to trouble. You are very self satisfied & egoistic.

Right On.

Done with the entertainment,
Let's move on to the gist.

See that?

That's my ticket to New experiences :

New People.
New Environment.
New Food.
New Lifestyle.
New Home.
New Habits.
New Emotions.
Everything New
To Me At Least.

God Please Help Me Be Done With It Smoothly. Need Your Continuous Blessings & Strengths. Amin.

To Get What I Want, I Need to Be It.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Magnanimous? Never.

How does it feel to say things and take all of them back?

The bad remarks,

The cursing,

The dark secrets,

The backstabbing.

When ALL you are & what you DO is everything that you say about them?

What kind of a person does that make you

A two faced?

Licking your own spit?

Shitting in the middle of the road and not admitting that you did?

Maybe ALL of the above.

No, I don't care about you & your deeds anymore.

Just, this post is to remind me to really not be anything like you.

It's a shame.

You can't go on trying to change the whole world, people
however hard you try, if that person doesn't want to change.
It takes thyself to change himself.

I tried countless times to help everyone I know to become what I think was ideal for them
It worked for a bit & things don't stay good for long.
So I quit trying to change people.
Cause now I know that'll never work.

Most powerful means, motivation to make change happen and last?


Friday, September 3, 2010


I never had bruises before. Not from doing sports, chores or whatever.
My first bruises ever, from cleaning up my drawers.
Thought I'd like to remember this. That's why it's here.
Salam Eid.